So eventful things in my life:

• Spring Break = boring, but relaxing.  I just miss my car.  Without my car, I am nothing.
• Guitar - I figure, better late than never in learning guitar.  It has always been a skill that I felt like I should have.
• Left 4 Dead - Very fun.  I like it lots.
• Gears of War 2 - I liked this lots too.  I think there should be an award for most satisfying headshot sound ever.
• School - I am actually pretty excited with this quarter.  My classes do not seem stressful and actually revolve around subject matter that is actually interesting to me.
• Summer - Taking fun classes, hopefully working at Trader Joe's.  I am excited for summer.
• Greens - So my mom found my paraphernalia... I am glad that I am not staying here over the summer.
• PCN - At the moment, I supposedly playing 4 different parts.  This is probably going to change, but it is fun.  I am taking Theater 5 this next quarter so not only should I be getting an easy A, but I should be getting some good experience in acting.  All my characters are considerably funny so I am excited for that.  I should probably be working on the film aspect... but whatever.
• Work - I plan on moving on from my FT days soon enough... or at least doing something else as well.  Let the job hunt begin...

All in all, I am excited for this new year.  2009 really will be my year.  Mark my words.

anything... between you and me...

was never meant...

Ninja style up in this mug...

The last few days, I have found myself a million times more irritable than ever before.  I think it is because I am really trying to grow up.  I am tired of dicking around with everyone pretending that everything is awesome because we are young.  Yeah, we are young.  Yeah, we are trying to enjoy ourselves, but at the same time, we have to be able to consider our future.  The future is not too far away and if we want our futures to look bright, we have to take care of our shit now.  Who knows what you will or won't be capable of 6 months from now.  Make sure you stay consistent in your life and understand what you need keep as a good part of your personality.

Im really am trying to acquire a new stance on life with optimism and confidence.  I think those two qualities are the most important to have when it comes to growing up.  You can't go into life thinking that it is just going to fuck you over.  People get unlucky, good people get punished for making mistakes.  Things will work out for you, you just have to believe that they will.  Do not let the fear hold you back from what you really want.  You can't be complacent and just believe that things will fall into your lap because they won't.  Confidence and optimism.  Optimism and confidence.  Confidence but not cocky.  Optimistic but not oblivious.  I think that was perfect way to explain what one has to believe in to succeed in life.

Seriously though, I really do believe that this is my year to do damage.  I really am looking to take initiative in all aspects of life.  I gotta ninja style this year.  Everything will fall into my lap.  All I need to do is make the Rube Goldberg that will roll it this way.

Things to explain in my next entry:

Ninja Style.

Growing up.

Making up metaphors.

Progress.  We are making progress.

No fast food.  Check.

Working out. Check.

Trying new things. Check.

Sociability.  Work in progress.

The new quarter has only just begun and I already feel much older and more productive than all of fall quarter.  I really felt like I had to change something drastic in my life to really get to where I want to go.

I am feeling a new confidence within myself.  I am feeling more comfortable within my own skin.

This is my year.  That is all I really have to say.  This is my year.

So This is the New Year...

With the new year comes resolutions.  And I am really looking at this new year for new beginnings and the birth of everything I strive to be.

JONATHAN ESPINOSA'S OFFICIAL NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS:

1. No More Soda.  (Flavored drinks are ok ie. lemonade, juice, fruit punch... , but to a minimum.)

2. No Fast Food.  (Fuji Apples + Sandwiches FTW)

3. Work out at least twice a week.  (No work in the evenings, no excuse.)

4. More school work, more focus on education.

5. More outgoing, meet more people.

6. SAVE MONEY

This entry leaves a lot to be desired for me.  I will continue on this one later.